http://www.greatdreams.com/animals.htm

SEA TURTLE - cautious spiritual search or path

http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/t3.htm

Turtle

To see a turtle in your dream, symbolizes wisdom, faithfulness, longevity, and loyalty. It also suggests that you need to take things slow in some situation or relationship in your life. With time, you will make steady progress. Alternatively, it indicates that you are sheltering yourself from the realities of life. Or that you are putting forth a hard exterior and not letting others in.

To dream that you are being chased by a turtle, indicates that you are hiding behind a facade instead of confronting the things that are bothering you. 

http://www.allturtles.com/articles/symbol.php

Dreams... What do they mean? The turtle seen in a dream indicates an unusual improvement. This would be a positive omen. Turtles in a negative aspect means fear of facing responsibility or reality. However, a turtle can represent long life because turtles live a long time. They also have quiet strength

http://www.sleeps.com/forums/dream-interpretation/8459.htm   (FORUM!)

Turtles are two wise pious people who work for the government or a big boss.You will introduce them to your friends.


SHOULD ALSO RESEARCH OCEAN

Penguin

The penguin is an interesting earth-bound bird that lives in and around the ocean. As a dream symbol it may represent concrete thinking, feelings of being burdened by unwanted emotions, lethargy, and a need to achieve balance. Think about your dream and see if any of these ideas are relevant to you. Superstition based dream interpretation books say that the penguin indicates that your problems are not as serious as you may think them to be.

Penguin

To see a penguin in your dream, signifies that your problems are not as serious as you may think. It serves as a reminder for you to keep you cool and remain level-headed. Alternatively, a penguin seen in your dream suggests that you are being weighed down by your emotions or by a negative situation. You need to find some balance and inner harmony.

Penguins mean people.

When populating your dream, penguins stand for your logical, reasoning side which sees things objectively. This is why if you see these strange birds in your dreams you should become aware of the fact that all your worries and problems are not that serious as they seem. You should keep your calm and try to have an objective perspective on things if you want to find the most appropriate solution to your problems as soon as possible.

Get rid of that negative emotions and feelings which hold you down and try to get a larger, more general view of any situation. Moreover, penguins as dream symbols warn that you should seek for balance and equilibrium if you really want to achieve happiness and peace of mind.

Urine

• To dream of seeing urine, denotes ill health will make you disagreeable and unpleasant with your friends.
• To dream that you are urinating, is an omen of bad luck, and trying seasons to love.

Dream Interpretation Urine, urinating

Excrement and other human waste products are a symbol of relief, of letting go and setting oneself free. When you dream about urinating, it may be an actual need to relieve yourself. If not, then it is a sign that you want to rid yourself of a difficult situation.

Urine:
If one dreamt was urinating in a place except a bathroom means if he is rich will lose some money , but if has debts will pay back.
If dreamt was urinating in an unknown place means will marry a girl from there.
If dreamt there was blood instead of urine means he will have a retarded baby.
If dreamt there was dregs and pus instead of urine means will have a malformed baby.
If dreamt was eating urine means he will earn some immoral money.
If dreamt urinated in the water means his child will study holy books and will be a wise knowledgeable person.
If dreamt urinated some and kept some of it means will lose some money but some of his sorrow will be over.
If dreamt people touched his urine and rubbed to themselves means his child will be a knowledgeable and people will follow him.
If urinated in the church or mosque means he will spend his money improperly.
If dreamt his clothes were polluted with urine means he will spend money for his child and family.
Urinating in its place means money for poor people, freedom for slaves and jailed people .Curing for ill people and turning back for travellers., discharge for an agent and for a judge means discharge and for a governor means death and for business people means a loss.
If dreamt urinated in his home in its place means will spend some money for his family but the money will replaced. Saba'a/ 39

Psychological Meaning: Urine may represent the feelings that you reject. You are trying to cleanse yourself of the things that you consider unworthy. However, dreams of urinating are usually caused by a full bladder. They have little symbolic significance- you should have gone before you went to bed.

Mystical Meaning: Urine has for centuries been regarded as a protection against ghosts and evil spirits. Also it was believed that if a girl urinates in a man’s shoes he will fall madly in love with her. Clearly, these interpretations are of great significance when interpreting you dream.

But only a pregnancy test may mean starting to have a money.

Pregnancy Test
To dream that you are taking a pregnancy test, may be a metaphor for a new phase you are entering in your life (a new job, relationship, etc.) You may feel that you are being put to the test as to whether you are prepared or ready for these changes. Alternatively, this dream may be literal in meaning and address your anxieties/fears of getting pregnant.

Coworker/Colleague:

Oddly enough, dreaming of a colleague rarely involves issues at work. The focus is more likely to be on traits this person possesses that mean something to you. For example, if this person's voice is especially loud, whatever he or she is saying to you in the dream is especially significant, and you should pay attention. If this person is someone you feel you can trust, there is some issue in your life involving trust that needs to be resolved. If you dream that a coworker whom you don't particularly like suddenly acts like your best friend, or a colleague whom you like and respect turns hostile, be prepared for a reversal of some kind - for better or worse.

COWORKERS : Coworkers can often represent issues at your workplace. If there was some pressing situation at work the day before then the dream maybe about that. At work we are forced to get along with people we really do not like and so the dream maybe about strained relationships. Sometimes the dream maybe about your work life balance. What part does work play in your life right now and do you feel happy or strained. Do you feel stimulated by work. Simply speaking - ask yourself what is the first thing that comes to mind about work and its probably a dream about that(the comment your boss made to you or the look that someone gave you). in another sense if there is some pressing issue regarding a relationship or your own personality then the dream maybe about you "working" on that. So if you have put lots of effort into changing yourself or others then it may link to that.

QUESTIONS to help you make associations(pick the one that makes most sense to you)
- Was there some situation or problem at work yesterday?
- Have you been having trouble with getting along with someone at work?
- Is there a big day at work tomorrow or have you been thinking about work?
- Have you been working on some issue concerning your own personality?

My dead grandmother found me on Google. I swear if I’m haunted by anyone...
Current mood: energetic
Category: Life

I googled my name and a few results down I get this:

Newark NJ USA

Kocur, Genevieve (Niemiec)

KOCUR - Genevieve (nee Niemiec), age 83, of Point Pleasant Beach, formerly of Bloomfield, N.J., died at home Sunday, May 4, 2003, predeceased by her beloved husband, John, in 1995 and her sister, Bernadette Booth, surviving are her loving children, Stephen Kocur and Christine Koerner, her grandchildren, Marc Gerardi and Amy Kocur, and her greatgrandchildren, Michael Gerardi and Frank Livia. Condolences may be paid at a Funeral Mass on Tuesday at St. Peter's Church, Point Pleasant Beach, N.J. Please contact VAN HISE & CALLAGAN FUNERAL HOME, 812 Arnold Ave., Point Pleasant Beach, N.J., for the time of the Mass.
Published in the Star-Ledger on 5/5/2003

I've googled myself before and this is the first time this has popped up.

As a note - I moved into the bedroom she died in 2 weeks after.  I have felt as though she has been a larger presence in my life since then than before she died.
The internet is intense.

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John Hughes has gone the way of the Salinger, save Drillbit.
Current mood: awake
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/news/movies/la-et-goldstein25mar25,0,3535882.story

I feel the need to listen to Otis Redding and wear pink taffeta.

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Black cops hate black kids - which system to blame?
Current mood: chipper
Category: News and Politics

This book is one for the must read list

http://www.amazon.com/Ass-Backwards-Officers-Criminals-Enablers/dp/0595460933

This has got to be two of my favorite societal structures and the author writes to deconstruct one of them - what leads [black?] kids to become delinquint and why it's wrong - but I'm interested in the counter deconstrucion of his own 'nurturing' career path - what leads [black, white, anyone, really] to want to become a cop?

Both can be addressed through probably the same statement:

What is probably reassuring to a minority committing a crime is probably the exact same thing reassuring a U.S. citizen in becoming a cop.  And again, as many debates go, the weight is held in the adjectives - what makes one good and the other bad?

Found through:

http://dc.indymedia.org/newswire/display/141971/index.php

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Karl Lagerfeld and Agyness Deyn - f*cked in my Blog.
Current mood: groggy
Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping

"It's sophisticated and expensive clothing for the rich punk," Karl Lagerfeld said

As of this week, I'm feeling a feverish backlash to my own indulgence in fashion culture.

1. 'Punk' and 'sophisticated' are "supposed to be" antonyms, no?

2. 'Punk' and 'expensive clothing' are supposed to be mutually exclusive.

3. Teenagers making money selling clothes, etc. on eBay annoys me as I believe they're making money they don't need.  Adults selling earrings for over $200 and handbags for over $10,000 annoys me even more because everyone's materialism has a stopping point and mine is waaaaay before those price tags.

So, where do I lie in my opinions of fashion?  I thought Agyness Deyn was my new favorite something-or-other but - that's not even her real name, she's being touted as the 'new Kate Moss' (who I find just gross) and her whole 'punk' thing really isn't that unconventional, especially in London.

I think the only way I can rationalize it is in drawing parallels to theatre.  Designers are putting on a show, literally, of costumes inspired by... whatever.  Lagerfeld is simply drawing inspiration from a lifestyle he is so far removed from it's not even funny in order to create a show that is appealing to...whomever.

'Punks' most likely don't even know who Lagerfeld is, and either way, certainly don't care.  Obviously it's catering to a trend but I just think it's funny that he deems his clothing fit for a 'punk' while sitting in a space that "was transformed to look like an elegant Parisian salon, with all-black chairs emblazoned with the Paris-Londres logo, candlelit tables, and a front row that included a mix of socialites, celebrities, and supermodels." (quotes fr. www.fashionweekdaily.com)

FULL article: http://www.fashionweekdaily.com/news/fullstory.sps?inewsid=513874

"Sure there were a lot more punks, but there were a lot more posers too.  What's a poser? Well, it's someone who looks like a punk, but they did it for fashion." - SLC Punk

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We are the crisis kids. Current mood: chipper Category: Life   All my generation is known for is coming up with a new 'life - crisis' 08.23.07 [UPDATE]  ... and then behaving as though they're the only person to have gone through something. ARE THE WORDS INDIE/ DIY SYNONYMOUS  WITH ASSHOLE? And I mean this question in a very serious, large scale sense - To a country of adults who have ended up on one side of a very divided countrywide social/economic structure it is very easy to believe their distaste for the youth has more to do with MY age group than the 'teenagers' being misclassified as spearheading this GenME movement. The article that spurred this addition includes all of the fodder - lack of humility, made up adjectives (of musical root used to describe a film no less, really getting to the height of mocking that whole _____-core trend) - that supplements my disdain along with the real kicker that I neglected in my original piece: "this romantic office comedy, about a hipster Annie Hall type, stars a who's who of the genre. It could very well be a mumblecore swan song, since, like all modern-day slackers, its creators are ready to sell out." Thanks a fucking lot John Mayer - if you really were the one to coin the term 'quarter-life crisis' as that's what we've come to be known as.  The crisis kids. Too young to be hip, too old to be hip.  That shitty generational thing that happens to kids born in contrast with a decade's defining  trends.   Was Kurt GenX or are we claiming him as our own because we were going through puberty at the time?   We're at the tail end of GenX and we're paving the way for these fucktards in HS to stage an alterna-music revival with the front of arrogant dismissal garnered by clothing labels rather than the 'fuck all' label dismissal the real grunge era touted.  I love that sentence.  Me, me, me... Generation Me.  The loss of community through the expansion of technology and exclusivity has rendered everyone isolated and hateful. We are the generation of hateful adjectives.  We are the generation of laughing at someone else to make yourself feel better.  We are the generation of competition.  We are the generation of fame-seeking, self-gratifying, debaucherous anti-aging with no concept of personal responsibility or personal growth.  We're the generation seeing everyone turn to therapy thinking WE KNOW BETTER. And we don't. This is what I think about myself and my peers on the eve of my birthday. A few years ago I was quoting Billy Talent singing, "Missing since 1983."  And it seems, with the younger kids getting slightly older that we've found ourselves, our voice... and all it is are those toys and aspects of our childhood that GenX was too old to get into and the newTeens are too young to really know. We've all turned into Troll Dolls. "All we are are crazy croutons and tomatos in a crazy salad."   8:09 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Friday, August 10, 2007 Amy Winehouse is a smokey mirror. To us all: Save Yourself. Current mood: annoyed Category: Life   Amy Winehouse has talent.  That's not what this rant is about.  This rant is to all her fucking pride-filled friends and her deadbeat husband: Why is NO ONE forcefully pulling her out of the situation she's living in and making her re-examine the way she's "living." Excerpts are from overdose article in The Sun. Even Amy says she will be dead within one year. If she wants to be dead then she will be.  Self-fulfilling prophecy can lead an entire person's life. "She had a party of people around before she collapsed.  "She looked like a zombie — white as a sheet and trembling. And I'll never forget her eyes. They were dead, like a shark. Why didn't any of her friends take her to the ER then???  If someone looks dead to you that's usually an indication of a problem.  At least Joaquin called 911... but reading shit like this I wonder if River could still be alive.  Why do friends especially in entertainment circles forget that even though drugs/alcohol can be indulged in w/o consequence you should always keep an eye for someone crossing that line into FUCKING FATAL USAGE. But the source told how Amy has shocked pals by comparing herself to romantic poet Lord Byron who died in 1824, aged 36.  They added: "She thinks all this stuff is romantic. She uses the word 'Byronic' — but for everyone else it's terrifying."  This part I can understand and is why, I think, I'm calling out her friends/family so much.  Artists do believe in this 'romance' that just isn't applicable in the real world and can become too foggy to see through. "To be honest, Blake doesn't help. I've known Amy since she started going out with him and I've never seen her so f***ed up as she is now.  "The house has become a drugs den. It's filthy, covered in ash and the stench of rotting food.  "Blake wants to be like Pete Doherty, with Amy as his Kate.  "But Amy is just tumbling and tumbling and all her mates are terrified." And throw love into the mix it's just too damaging... even if someone did pull her out... she'd be miserable for so long trying to repair all the damage that it'd very easily backfire and she'd relapse/ revert/ die. ****************** Do people really like her music so much that they'd rather see a person dissolve than step in and try to HELP? And what is HELP in a society that puts VALUE on her behavior and similar erratic living? Rehab is not a joke.  It's not a song.  And some people still need to be fucking committed, need to be punished and need to learn lessons - doing something artistic ONCE should not exempt you from that... whether or not you die or just start throwing temper tantrums at photo shoots.

So Brian totally became my favorite last night.  On Wed. he was edging forward because he was paying an awful lot of attention to me.  But last night.... last night I couldn't beat 'em off w/ a stick... namely Carl and Brian.  Adam ran out of there so fast, he didn't say one word to me.  Joe wanted my number but I wouldn't give it to him.  They left early.  I had Carl and Brian by my side pretty much the rest of the night, it was magical.

And it all culminated w/ me and Brian... How did he get over to the house? I don't remember any of the car ride home.  Aye!  I'm about to fall asleep at work and I just drank a red bull. Not good.
How did we start kissing?
I remember him 'taking it to the bedroom'. haha
I'm just pissed because I could really like him.  I kept alluding to that last night but he didn't understand.  And even if he did I don't think he cared.  For being the cute, nice, sort of shy guy he certainly gets around.  

Must go, drunk babbling to Shayne...